The Femme Cast
Welcome to The Femme Cast—the podcast for women who are truly ready to break free from toxic relationship cycles, choose themselves, and become a magnet for the love they deserve.
I’m Maria — Master Feminine Energy Healer | Radical Self-Love Leader | Relationship Mentor.
I empower women to break toxic patterns, reclaim their worth, and activate their feminine power — so they can unapologetically choose themselves and become magnetic to soul-aligned love, expansive opportunities, and the life they were born to lead. Without ever shrinking, apologizing, or giving their power away again.
If you’re a cycle breaker, a truth layer, or a woman ready to dismantle the inherited beliefs that told you to chase love, prove your worth, or beg to be chosen — this is for you.
Each week, I share raw personal stories, actionable insights, and spiritual + practical tools to help you heal past wounds, reclaim your confidence, and rewrite your love story. You’ll hear everything from my own journey through toxic relationships and self-abandonment to empowering lessons that guide you toward healthy, fulfilling connections and radical self-love.
Say goodbye to people-pleasing, self-abandonment, and unhealthy dynamics — and hello to emotional freedom, unapologetic power, and true empowerment.
It’s time to reclaim the version of you who never has to beg to be chosen.
You ready? Let’s do this.
The Femme Cast
Rage, Resentment & Emotional Alchemy | How Facing My Anger Helped Me Unlock Power, Purpose & Clarity
What if the anger you’ve spent years suppressing isn’t something to fix—but a compass guiding you home?
In this episode of The Femme Cast, I take you inside the storm — literally — to a cabin on a rock, by the ocean on an island in Thailand, where I met my rage face to face. What began as a night of emotional chaos became the birthplace of my Emotional Alchemy practice: a way to transmute anger, resentment, and rage into power, purpose, sovereignty, and clean energetic boundaries.
We’ll unpack how the cycle of anger → resentment → rage is not a moral failing, but a sacred map. Anger appears when a boundary is crossed or a need is ignored. Resentment festers when we silence the message. And rage? Rage is the soul’s final attempt to be heard—an eruption born from years of self-abandonment and people-pleasing.
Through personal stories—caregiving pressures, emotional exhaustion, and even a near-meltdown in a Walmart aisle—you’ll learn how to move through this emotional fire without burning bridges or yourself. Together, we’ll explore:
🎤 The true message beneath your anger (and how to actually hear it)
🎤 How people-pleasing disconnects you from your body’s guidance
🎤 Somatic release practices to move emotion safely through the body
🎤 Candid journaling prompts that reveal what your anger is protecting
🎤 Simple, powerful boundary scripts that keep your energy clean and sacred
🎤 How to transform rage into clarity, confidence, and inner calm
This isn’t about “managing” emotions—it’s about liberating them. When you stop fearing your anger and start listening to it, you unlock your most magnetic power: the courage to lead yourself with honesty, integrity, and love.
If you’ve ever felt ashamed of your anger, trapped in resentment, or terrified of your own intensity, know this…
Nothing is wrong with you. Your emotions are divine messengers. Rage is not the end—it’s the portal. Through the fire, you rise softer, wiser, and infinitely more powerful.
Your anger isn’t here to destroy you.
It’s here to deliver you back to yourself.
Tune in, and let this episode be your invitation to release, reclaim, and remember who you truly are.
Ready to stop shrinking for others? Let this episode be your sign → Step into your Unapologetic Era: https://thefemmecast.com/breakthrough
Hey guys, what is up and welcome back to the show. I'm so excited and grateful to have you guys here. Welcome if you're new. I am so so so excited for this next series, you guys. I have been planning this for so long. I have been hesitating to share this for so long. It is literally the body of work that I've been working on for literally years. Um, and I'm so excited to share it with you today. And I my heart feels full, and you're gonna hear the topic and you're gonna be like, really? That's what makes your heart feel full. But it's this conversation on anger, resentment, and rage. And why it is so important. Like the this whole series is about cultivating a healthier relationship with our anger, our rage, and our resentment so that we can use it to our advantage. I fully believe that every emotion that we feel is serving us in a powerful way. We just need to learn how to process and move through our emotions in healthy ways. And I think that's the part that's missing for so many of us. Like we're not taught how to do this, we don't know how to, we didn't, we don't even know that we don't even know that there is a healthy way to move through emotions like anger and rage and resentment. And the reality is as human beings, um, we feel these things. We're meant to feel these things. These are how we transform, these are how we evolve. Every single emotion serves a purpose. Um, and it's how we learn to move through that emotion that that person, that purpose gets to be really fulfilled. So I really do want to be focusing on anger, rage, and resentment. These, you know, anger, rage, and resentment is the plight of the people pleaser, you know, because we do this, we bottle up so much of our emotions. We we're always letting our boundaries get crossed, we're always letting people take advantage of us, we're always giving more than we receive back. This makes us angry. That anger then returns, turns to resentment, that right resentment turns to rage. Um, and we keep bottling it all up inside of us and um, you know, letting it build and letting it fester and letting it do so much damage. All of these are little conversations that we're gonna have throughout the next couple of episodes, a few episodes. Um, but that just kind of gives you a teaser of how why we're talking about this and how this all fits together, okay? Um so I've mentioned this story before um here on the show. I've talked about, you know, my travels through Southeast Asia and how, you know, there was one night where I was trapped on the rocks outside of um, it was on the western side of Kopenya, which is a smaller island in Thailand, the island with the famous full moon party, which yes, we went to a full moon party. Um, we actually, it's funny. I'm trying to remember the order of events. I'm pretty sure we went to the meditation retreat, escaped the meta rechation retreat, and then went to the full moon party. Something along those lines. I'm pretty sure that was the order of events as it took place. But um, you know, there was there was there was plenty going on to both trigger and help me avoid the feelings that were coming up from me. And believe me, like take it from somebody who traveled I don't know how many 10,000 miles more um to escape, to learn to heal, but also to escape a lot of her triggers. Your stuff comes with you. Like you can't run, you can't run from yourself. You really can't. Um, so you know the the meditation retreat we we escaped from. Yeah, there was some not so good um people and practices there, but um, I think they were a very convenient excuse to leave some place that was making me really come face to face with what I was holding on the inside, right? And maybe in a lot of ways, now that I think about it, a lot of what we saw in that meditation retreat, as unhealthy and dysfunctional as it was, was actually a mirror for what was going on inside of me. Um then I escaped to the parties and you know, the full moon parties and whatever. Had a great time, met some amazing people, wildly distracted from anything going on internally, and then got stuck on this cabin by myself. Long story. Um, but basically got stuck on this cabin by myself. It was like situated on top of a boulder um on the west coast of the island. Um, couldn't get in or out because the the the only way out of there was like through a long tail boat or a jungle jeep and couldn't access either because the the weather was so bad. There was like um the jungle was muddy, the the the the mountainside was muddy, the waters were rough, the long tail boats couldn't get, couldn't even get in. Um, I was stuck. And so I had to spend the night on this cabin that was on a boulder, um, right on the side of the right, like right on the edge of the coast, like right on the coastline. Like that was like the shoreline. And so the waves were just crashing right up against this boulder all night long. Um, and there I was in the dark, no Wi-Fi, because I couldn't get a signal, waves crashing on the rock. Every time the waves hit the rock, that cabin would just shake and shutter. It was like, it was like there was something exploding beneath the cabin every time one of those waves crashed up against the rock. And, you know, before I knew it, you know, first I was scared, right? Scared as like so scared than I'd ever been my entire life, I think. Then I got really emotional. Um, I started crying. I didn't know what I was crying about. Like all these just memories just kind of came flooding back to me. Next thing you know, I'm filled with so much rage. I'm screaming and I can't even hear myself because the thundering crash of the waves is so loud. I'm literally like completely camouflaged. So nobody can hear me. I can't even hear me at this point. I'm screaming at the top of my lungs. I really couldn't tell that I was screaming, like from what I was hearing, because the the crash of the wave was so hard. Um, the only way I really knew I was screaming is because I woke up the next morning and I literally had no voice. I was screaming so hard. Um, so you know, a lot of rage, a lot of rage, a lot of anger, a lot of resentment came to the surface that night. Um, and I did sit with a lot of it and I did kind of just allow the feelings to come up and just move through me and just process them. Like there, there was so much I think I had I had stored probably like for my like since I was little. I was an expert at suppressing my emotions. And so many of us, I think, who are people pleasers struggle with that. And what I think we need to remember is that that's where our truth, a lot of our truth comes from. That's where a lot of our power comes from to speak our truth, to set boundaries, to to ask for what we want and be really clear and assertive. So so much of our power comes from that. So much of our truth comes from that, and so much of our magnetism actually comes from that. And I think that's where I think a lot of the times we've gotten it wrong. Um, there is a powerful source of energy that comes from moving through your anger and your rage and your resentment that you've been holding on to. And we're gonna talk more about that in episodes to come. But um, in that cabin that night, that's really where my practice for emotional alchemy was born. And that's where I learned to really just talk to my emotion like another part of me, um, and really start to look at why they're there and what it is that they're trying to teach me, which has become a really powerful practice for me. I've, you know, I've been very faithful with my morning practice practice. Um, I'm not gonna say every day because there's been times where I felt like, you know what, I need a break from you for a little bit, but it didn't last very long. Like I've been pretty much religiously doing my practice for um, and I realize I just contradicted myself by saying pretty much religiously, but let's just say I've been fairly consistent with doing my practice. Um I'd say almost for the last 15 years, 10 to 15 years, it's been 10 for sure minimum. Um maybe like more accurately 12 to 13 years. And by saying mostly consistent, what mostly consistent means is literally doing it every morning that I how can I how do I put how do I quantify this? There is very few mornings in that period where I didn't do my morning practice. There are some mornings like where my my day started really early and you know just didn't have enough time or I woke up late. I make exceptions on those days, but they're very far and few between. Um, I'm the kind of person where if I need to be somewhere at six or if I need to start getting ready at six, I will get up at five to do my morning practice. If that's what it means for me to isolate some time to be with myself, I will do that. Now, there are times, like I said, where I just start ridiculously early, like especially if I'm with my parents and having to take care of them, or if they're in hospital, or if they're unwell and that's taken precedent, then you know I may not do it on those days, or if I'm just really tired and I really just need to sleep in, I will let myself sleep in. But for the most part, I will wake up an hour before I have to start getting ready and do my morning practice. There's only been there's odd few days here and there where I don't do it, to be honest. Most there are most weeks I do it every day. Put it that way. Most weeks I do it seven days a week. Occasionally I will let myself off the hook. And there have been a few periods where I had to take a step back from it for like a week or two and say, okay, you know what? I think I need to just pause. And I think I just need to um shift my energy. Maybe it was because I needed to um, you know, discover a new morning practice. I've told you guys so many, like I've got so many tools in my tickle trunk of morning practice tools and techniques. Um, and every now and then I need to shift it. You know, I need to shift the visualization next time. I need to shift the journaling, I need to shift the affirmations. Like the focus is different, things have changed, I've evolved. Like, you know, sometimes I need to time to reset to ground to see where I'm at and and kind of figure out what's next, right? So, and sometimes I just need a break, right? Sometimes I just need to, sometimes I need a personal development detox. And I think personal development detoxes are actually really healthy to do, especially if you're somebody who's really passionate about your own personal development. So take it or leave it. That's my advice to you today. Um, but you know, going back to this experience, right, where I kind of, you know, this is where my practice for emotional alchemy really began. And this is where my practice for really um using my emotions and learning from them and conversing with them and trying to, you know, uh be more curious about why they're there, as opposed to either ignoring them, denying them, pretending they don't exist, um, camouflaging them, pretending to be or feel something that I don't, you know, all these little things, all these little techniques that we use to avoid what's really going on internally, is really just or judging ourselves harshly for them and thinking that we're bad people for having these feelings, or you know, um, just really just getting curious and sitting down and being open to whatever wants to come forward, you know, that has been a part of my daily practice um most of through most of that journey, through most of that that period of of you know doing a consistent morning practice. Um that has probably been the one tool that I almost never exclude. It's almost like the foundation, right? Um have I excluded it from time? Yeah, sometimes. Sometimes I just feel like, you know what? Again, maybe I need an emotional alchemy detail. Maybe I've done enough emotional like excavating for now. I maybe I just need a break, right? And and I give that to myself again. But for the most part, that has been probably one of the most consistent tools that I lean on has been um this tool where I I, you know, and and I'm gonna share some of the prompts with you in later um episodes, but this tool for just just having really candid and open and honest conversation with the emotions that are coming up because again, every emotion is trying to heal you, is trying to teach you, is here to guide you, is here to transform you, and is here to help you evolve as a spiritual being. Um, and so I think it's really, really, really important that um that we remain open to that. Now, rage specifically, right? Um, you know, I healed a lot of my rage last night, that that night, last night, that night. Um, but the rage did come up again in 2024 when my caregiving responsibilities with my parents really amped up after my mom had her fall. Um, and um, you know, things got really intense really, really, really quickly. And what I noticed was, and there was also some other things going on in my life with my with my career and and my work at the time. I had lost my job, I had gotten another job, but it wasn't, it was, it was, it was just it was a filler, right? It was a filler because I was working on the podcast and I was working on the business, I was taking care of my mom. Like there were so many things going on. My energy was just spread in so many different directions that I needed to just find something um easy that can kind of just I could just kind of slot it into my life kind of effortlessly, um, just to give me a little bit of cushion, right? And I, you know, I was just so unhappy with what I was, you know, doing. Um, there were so many things that were triggering anger in me. There were so many things that were triggering um all this like trapped and suppressed emotion in me. And I remember being in a Walmart one day, and you know, um, you know, my mom was struggling, my dad was acting up, somebody bumped me with a shopping cart, you know, and all of a sudden I needed to walk into another aisle where there where there was nobody there and just like just let myself breathe because I felt so much anger coming up all of a sudden that I literally wanted to start screaming in the middle of a store. Um, and so, you know, knowing what I know and knowing what I do and knowing what I've, you know, I experienced everything. And I and it's funny because when I was going through that, I remembered that night on the rock. And I said, okay, you know what? I think it's time to take a look at this again. And so I did. And, you know, this whole last year, like this was this was actually probably, I'm coming up probably on the anniversary right now, because it was probably around October, November of last year. Um what this did for me over the last year as I started to look at this, is I started to look at rage more closely, and I started to look at I I really started to get intimate with it. Um, and what I found out about rage through this process, and again, like I'm not a psychologist, like I can't give you like the psychological explanation for our definition of rage. I really couldn't. Um I you know, I know, you know, there's anger, there's resentment, there's rage. To me, they're all one in the same family, or at least they have been for me, and they have been for a lot of the women that I've worked with. Because when we work together, like if you've ever worked with me, you'll know this. You know, we move through emotions and layers, right? And we start to unpack and unravel and you know, kind of set you free from all these emotions that have been kind of stuck and lingering beneath the surface and creating basically shit you don't want, right? So with rage, and you know, again, my clients are typically women, typically people pleasers. So maybe it's something specific to that, right? Um, but typically what I find is, you know, the anger comes first, right? So something happens and it makes us angry. A boundary gets crossed. Um, you know, we're we're felt stifled in some way, we're felt repressed, uh suppressed, um, oppressed in some way. Um, someone lets us down. We we put our effort, we give and we give and we give, and we don't get what we're expecting in return. And that could, that could stem, like that could be with so many things, right? Like that can be relationships, that could be career, that can be business, right? Like anything that you're pouring your energy into that you thought was gonna like pay off for you that in the end didn't, that can make you angry. Um, an unmet need or desire, you know, whatever it is, there's this moment where you feel anger, right? And what happens is oftentimes if we're a people pleaser, oh, but anger's bad. I'm just gonna, I'm just gonna ignore that. I'm gonna ignore that. I'm gonna think happy thoughts, I'm gonna think positive, I'm going to try again, different energy, you know. It it was a moment, it passed, it's done, it's not gonna happen again. That person's not gonna, you know, cross that boundary again. Um you know, maybe, maybe you try to in a passive grow passive aggressive way let them know that you were upset. Think they got the hint, they didn't. Um and um, you know, you just kind of you know, try to sweep it under the rug. Then it happens again. Um and so we do the same thing. We ignore it, sweep it under the rug, um, and happens again and again and again, and we keep sweeping it up, uh sweeping it under the rug until this the anger, the anger that became rage is now built up so much it now, or sorry, resentment built builds resentment, jumping ahead, builds like this resentment over and over and over again until it boils over so much that it becomes pure uninhibited rage. And now suppressing that has become a chore in itself, right? Um, so you know, let's let's dissect that, right? So when the moment happens, initially happens, there's there, you know, when you get angry, when the boundaries cross, when you're disappointed, when you're let down, um, you know, whatever they can the case may be, know that there is a message in that for you, right? Like, yeah, there's a part of you that's just angry and projecting at the other person and blaming them for what you experience, and I and that's normal. And we all do that, but underneath all of that, that anger has a message for you. Okay, it has a message for you about where you need to uphold your boundaries, where you need to speak more clearly, where you need to be able to ask for what you want. And if if you're not getting what you want, then you need to, you know, you maybe you need to you need to to to redirect or or make make a different decision, take a different course of action, right? Um and so, but we ignore that, right? Because we don't actually pay attention to the anger. We just try to sweep it under the rug and assume it's not going to happen again. Next time we'll be better, next time we'll be easier, next time they'll get it, they don't. It happens again, we sweep it under the rug again. Because ultimately, and I don't know, I mean, obviously we're afraid. Obviously, there's a part of us, and I believe it's the I believe the ego is afraid for us to really understand what the message of that anger is, because then we have to act on it, right? And that scares the crap out of the ego because the ego just wants to keep you safe, right? That it is hardwired to keep you on the safe and narrow, right? And so listening to that anger and paying attention to it might actually make you do something that's really uncomfortable or make you realize you need to do something that might be really uncomfortable for you because it's going to bring you one step closer to your power and your potential, right? And that scares the crap out of the ego every time. Um, so we try to avoid the anger. We avoid the anger again and again. And every time it happens, we get more angry and then it becomes resentment, and then it becomes rage. And when it becomes rage, it's this accumulation of anger and resentment that we have felt for years that now is just ready to explode on the next innocent bystander at the grocery store who bumps you with a grocery cart. Guilty. Um but what's interesting is whenever I've dissected this, and it's funny, I've I've seen it in my clients, and I and I started to see it in myself as well last year when I started to really dive into this work. What I realized in the rage was that yes, there was that surface level part that was projecting onto I'm angry because they took advantage of me. I'm angry because they don't respect my boundaries, I'm angry but whatever, whatever the case may be. Um beneath all of that is an underlying anger at yourself because of all the ways you've self-abandoned to let that happen. And that's the part that we often don't pay attention to because we have to let that, the the surface level stuff out first. The noise, the the part of you that's projecting onto everyone else. We have to fully let that out before we can hear the underlying message that your soul has for you from all of that rage and turmoil, anger and resentment that you've been feeling, maybe even frustration, right? But the problem is we won't let ourselves let all that surface level angle anger and rage out. So can we can hear the calm, guiding light that comes from that rage, right? Or if we do, we do it in the unhealthiest ways, and all we create is more rage and more anger and more resentment, right? Because we haven't handled it appropriately. We've either suppressed it completely and denied it and avoided it and and and tried to pretend it didn't exist, or we've projected it onto the people that we love most, right? And created harmful and painful interactions both for ourselves and for the other. Never really have we learned to deal with our rage and our anger and our resentment in really healthy, loving ways, both for loving for ourselves and loving for the people around us. Um and so where we start in the unraveling is letting all that rage out, right? So all that stuff that all that surface level stuff that's blaming this person or this job or that business or this circumstance for whatever it is that you're feeling right now is is letting it all out and really tuning into what the the deeper message that that rage has for you. And again, you have to bring it back to okay, so I'm right now I'm rage. This is where the resentment has built up. This was where the initial point of anger began, and you almost have to go back to that point, right? Which is a lot of the work that we do together. But I think that you know the first step, the first step in all of this is in really learning to let that rage and anger, that projection out in healthy ways. Now, having said that, there are so many ways that you know you can start to heal and unpack and move through all that stored rage and anger and resentment that you've been holding on to, if that is you. Um, but the important thing to remember first, you know, before you even we before you even go down that road, and we're gonna give you some really, really cool tips and techniques in this series to really help you. But before you even go down that road, I just want you to be present with um, you know, the fact that the rage exists, the anger exists, the resentment exists, and it doesn't mean anything about you. Rage does not make you a bad person, it doesn't mean you're not kind, it doesn't mean that you're not loving. Um, it doesn't mean that you've done anything wrong, which oftentimes, you know, the spiritual development or the personal development community can easily make you do. Um, it's none of that. It is a normal and healthy part of your human experience. It is a normal and healthy part of your evolution here as a spiritual being having a human experience. So um let it just set the intention that you are willing to see how this anger, this rage, this resentment might be supporting you. Let just be open to the fact that it might be here for your highest good. Be open to the fact that it may have a very positive purpose and light to shine in your life and that you're open and available to seeing what that is. And that's really going to make the biggest difference. And when we start to, when we start to redefine our relationship with our emotional experience, that is when we really become powerful as spiritual beings. The problem is that we've been taught to shame, to limit, to avoid, to suppress, to hide so many different emotions because they're bad or not good or not healthy or low vibrational or whatever the fuck we've been taught. And it's all a bunch of BS. That is where our power is, and that is where our evolution takes place, and that is where we was up, we we evolve into higher spiritual beings. So um learn to just be present with your emotions and allow them to be there and make them not mean anything about who you are, how good you are, or how loving you are, or how high vibrational you are. It is all in how you move through them. That is what defines you as a person and your vibration. Okay, so we are gonna talk more about this, but until next time, you guys, massive love.
